Sadly, the more time I spent with him encouraging his habits, the more time there was for me to see his true colours. This includes him getting into fights with strangers, having an explosive arguments and having intimate ‘friendship’ with girls. I have always believed that everyone can be loved and saved which makes me saw past these faults…
I have recently been thinking about the people around me and what testimony’s they have which could bless people. When speaking to my friend Ann, I asked her why she hadn’t shared her personal testimony. Ann explained that although, a testimony highlights the joy that comes from God, but she found herself focusing on her past pain which she had experienced but until Ann stepped back and gave thanks to God for where she is presently compared to before, that she realised the extent of Gods goodness in her life.
Ann’s Story
When I was sixteen, I got into my first ‘serious’ relationship. Despite thinking, I knew what I needed and wanted, I knew that the relationship wasn’t right for me. It started off well, I was happy and enjoyed the company of someone else. However, I soon turned seventeen and started to notice that he would rather spend his weekends out with his friends getting drunk. I was strong for a while and worked around this, making time during the week and spending Sundays watching movies even if he wasn’t much company.
As the time we spent together got shorter and the memories of his previous nights became patchier, I began to get more desperate to spend time with him. Church wasn’t an option for him so I started filling my weekends with underage drinking just so I could spend more time with him. This obviously led me to missing time with family and most importantly with God.
Sadly, the more time I spent with him encouraging his habits, the more time there was for me to see his true colours. This includes him getting into fights with strangers, and having an explosive arguments and having intimate ‘friendship’ with girls. I have always believed that everyone can be loved and saved which makes me saw past these faults. Sadly, I didn’t realise how much of a tow this was taking on me as a young girl and I needed somebody more than me to save him.
I remember during one argument, I sat sobbing in his bathroom alone praying to God in desperation for help. A verse I had never heard of before popped into my head “she is more precious than rubies.” I had never heard this verse or the voice before. So I obviously googled this to find out where this had come from and it was Proverbs 3:15- “she is more precious than rubies; nothing you desire can compare to her.” From that day on, my whole perspectives of myself changed.
I couldn’t believe that God would say that I am more precious than anything He could desire or want to put before me even jewels and riches. I knew that if God said that about me, then I could not and would not be treated as anything less than that.
So if you are just like me, tagging along in a sad relationship, I think it’s high time you listen to your inner mind and listen to what message God has for you or what name He’s called you, “a crown of beauty and a royal diadem in His hand”. Isaiah 62:3.
